Rubbles of Love
7th September 2009. I will never forget that day. After 10 years 10 months and 1 day, she decided to ask for a trial separation. Where did all that came from?
Have I taken what we have for granted?
I guess if I looked at it from that perspective, maybe I have. Maybe I was just too comfortable with what we have. The fact is…we both are too busy looking at things from our own perspective that I fail to understand her needs. I am not going to blame her for whatever that is going on now….I blame ME!!! I am selfish, I am a bastard.
I just need to understand….after a decade together…what is important? What should be the link that hold a relationship together? I guess LOVE is not enough….then what is. With love comes understanding, compromise and conversation…but even that is not enough to hold LOVE together. Then what IS?
I have given my heart…and now…I have nothing…and the saddest part is….I feel like there’s this stone in my heart…which is pressing against the core of my being.
I know what I want…but it’s been too many times I’ve been through this uncertainty. Can I take it any longer? I really don’t know.
I know that I still do love you, with all my soul….as you have my heart. I am hurt…hurt beyond repair….and when the silver lining comes my way….I will embrace it and will ensure that I will not do the same mistake again.
